I have no idea where that kiss came from but it was the best thing Tom's ever done. I realized his tongue got stuck on my tongue ring. It made laugh inside. I know that deep down...well maybe on the surface, he loves me and wants to be with me. I want him too...


When i woke this morning Tom was staring at me. I think he had been for a while because he had gotten in a very comfortable position. I got up, went over to his bead and gave him a good morning kiss. I went out in the kitchen to get breakfast and Gustav and Georg was in there.

"Mornin'" i said.

"morning" they said in unison.

"you were tired last night im guessing. I came home, you were asleep and Tom was staring off into space licking his lips...it was an 'interesting' sight." Gustav whispered.

"ya i was exhausted. Long night. Played Singstar '80's til 11 and had to listen to Tom play Guitar Hero till 1." I answered(of course i didnt tell him about Tom's and my passionate kiss).

"well here tom comes now. Why dont you ask him why the hell he kept you up." Georg said almost in a hostile voice.

"Mornin' tom..." we all said.

Tom came over to me and (because i was behind the island in the kitchen) grabbed my hand. He was playing with my fingers and one of my many rings.

"Hey you kept me up last night with your playing" I said to tom.

"Ya i know but i was in a wicked good mood..."Tom said with his eyes lighting up. I could tell that he was remembering last nights events. Not that i can say i wasnt. I love Tom and he loves me. Its a love the world cant possibly understand. Just because we're guys and twins doesnt mean we cant have feelings for each other, even if those feelings are sexual.

"Its ok im over it" i said because i really was. But this answer i dont think was good enough for Georg.

"what the hell do you mean 'youre over it'? Thats not a frickin fight or confrontation thats what a american says when someone accidentally says youre someone your not." he was like yelling across the room"over it,what the hell,over it" he walked out of the kitchen mumbling.

Gustav is a caring sort of person so he said"ill go calm him down. hes just over dramatic."

So the both of them were gone and it was only tom and i. Tom looked at me like i normally look at him. He had the look of longing and waiting in his eyes. But my plan was not to give him it but make him take it...like last night.
"I think im gonna go take a walk."

"Where Bill? Where could you possibly go in the middle of winter?"

"I dunno but ill figure it out lighten up." I have no idea what had gotten into Tom but i didnt like it. "You wanna come with me?"

"Hell frickin ya!"

"Well we could go to the mall but we cant go to the roof. Anyways i need new arm warmers."

"And i need a new hat and sweatshirt"

"Georg are you fucking relaxed yet?!" i yelled...we had to tell them we were leaving.

"Yes dammit im relaxed!!" He hollered back.

"Well we're going to the mall...if you need us we have our cells!"

"a'ight! see you soon!" he screamed i think he was drunk.

Tom and i left within three seconds of yelling to Georg. We walked to the mall and got arm warmers, and a new hat&sweatshirt. Of course we also had to go through the trouble of autographs. I think we signed like 1000 in 10 minutes. When we came home Georg was gone but Gustav was there.

"Where the hell did he go?" i questioned.

"I have no fuckin' idea! he said he had to get away from here from a little while. So i just let him go."


Georg walked in at three a.m. while Tom and i were in the middle of our second passionate kiss.